I remember how much I loved that movie in 1999.
That particular line has been running in my head since I received some of the most beautiful gifts this Christmas.
Charles made me the most beautiful book of photographs. They are images that take your breath away - and images that are close to my heart.
All of the photographs speak to me in some way - and the inscription in the back says, "In putting this together I realized how lucky I am to have seen such beauty. I think I'll make the theme of the book ~ seek out beauty and when you find it, share it."Thanks Charles for sharing the beauty and reminding us that it is all around us. I am so lucky to have you!
I wrote earlier that this was the year of the simple Christmas. It turned out to be just what I needed. Simple gifts, simple pleasures and the joy of being around those I love. Gifts like the one Charles gave me, fill me with so much happiness. I realize how lucky I really am. I have wonderful people in my life. And I realize I don't often recognize them.
Keeping a blog has made me feel like a bit of a narcissist.
It is an ongoing dialogue with yourself. And while I like to think it is reflective, it is most often just full of complaining and my own views on how the world should react to me and how I react to the world.
I talk so much about myself, but I don't really look at myself.
On Christmas Eve, a woman who has known me since I was 12, came up to me, held my face in her hands and told me how beautiful I was.
I nearly fell over. Here is a person that sees me at least a few times a year. Never had she done this before.
But she paid me the best compliment and gave me the best gift I could have gotten.
She told me she could see how I was really and truly becoming the woman I was supposed to be. And that I was glowing. Glowing in my own beauty and who I was.
Comfortable in my own skin.
I was overcome by what she said to me. I have never considered myself to be beautiful or pretty. Just an average girl/woman.
The kind of girl/woman nobody really noticed. Not even the people that saw me every day.
I recalled painting the picture above in college. At the time - another woman came up to me and told me the painting was my self portrait. She said the woman I would become was in that painting.
I couldn't imagine myself as that woman - but what a nice thought. Oh to be beautiful and bold. Confident and able to turn heads.
It only took another 18 years. But I think both women were right. There was the woman I was longing to become - and now here I am. I'm her.
And there is a beauty in that.
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